Gobbelly Gook

Ok here it is my Papa - it's all yours, the good, the bad, the ugly & disgruntled and the excitement spilling out all over the place.

The last week has been brimming with extremes. From thrilling new discoveries and hidden talents revealed in the "weening and winning" project to utter disappointment with the lack of needed gifts in another super-sized project. The days, evenings, early mornings and weekend have absorbed my energy but not my enthusiasm. Strange and interesting how you give me both all mixed in together. Despair and victory all in one bite. Do you do that because I get too juiced about the good and end up losing self-control? Do you drop the load of steaming poo on my brain to balance the explosive sunshine and daisies? Well, either way, I appreciate it. I am glad you do it.

It gives some slant to the great to have the gooey stinking up the sidelines of my mind, and I believe it is necessary.

I got so excited today about the reactions to the creative strategy for Weening and Winning project that I showed the Source some comps and samples. Given my trust meter on him is somewhere in the bowels of the negative, it was a dumb move. Stinkin' self control! I expressed my regret to the Source indicating a lack of trust in his ability to keep the work quiet and as expected it was met with no response. No response, as expected. So I blew it ... again on multiple levels.

Later, feeding off of the energy of the great feedback on the strategy from others, I got myself all happy again. Then I got one of the best samples of 6th grade chick on chick conflict ever. It would have been a lot cooler if the chicks were 11. Instead these women, ages 26 - 39 have engaged in an emotional, bitchy and complex, little, battle of manipulation and I may have to moderate. One of them thought it would be a good idea to "keep me informed". May I just say that until I digress back to 12 years old, change my name to Ashley and grow angel wings from my butt - I do NOT wish to get anywhere near this type of conflict.


Ahhh it is so nice to be able to say these things freely. While this space is to commune with my God, I feel it only appropriate to call out what He already knows. The understanding of this forming relationship with Him is liberating in the purest sense. I understand now, that while He is indeed aware of my iniquities, He is also aware of my good stuff too. And then of course, He is aware of well- everything which makes it easier to be honest about my frustrations on account of it is not anything He didn't expect or already know. Sounds babbly - but it's mind-expansion to me.

I mentioned a similar idea to "mind-expansion' to someone today and I would just like to give credit in writing to Big Daddy for it. See, over the last year and a half, God has lifted a veil that limited my point of view on topics from career, work, family, childhood experiences, business, God, the Holy Spirit, The Father, my kids, my husband, and so on and so on. My new view affords wisdom and understanding a better chance to exist in me. Thanks Dad!


A garbled mess this one - but I love and thank you Jesus for the work you have invested in me. And thank you for divine inspiration of the advertising team, for preparing the hearts and minds of the clients to receive your work and ultimately for the joy of victory that rightly belongs to you. Thank you so much for these exquisite gifts that I am so not worth receiving!
I love you.