Writing Old School

So I have taken on a sort of fast since October and officially on a daily basis since January 1, 2010. The "fast" is writing letters to Papa, old school writing with an actual pen or colorful marker. Each morning I get up around 4 or 5 and read two or three devotions then I write to God.

I was thinking I wold post some of those things here. I may think better of it as it's all exposy and stuff.

Today I want to say I am thinking of Finding Joy In The Journey and Love Is Not Against The Law.

My cup is very full and it has stickers and barrettes on it. I like my cup.

This has been a extra tough week. God told me to die, to surrender everything, to sell everything give it to the poor and follow him. He told me three times this week those same things. I am struggling with the idea of giving up EVERYTHING. I tried to think about not having my husband and boys and I wept. I tried to think of not having my cozy big bed and I got angry.

So I am having a garage sale - big obnoxious garage sale with signage, departments and fitting room. I will give have the cash to the poor and buy another bed for the prophets who will come to stay with us.

I have also been fasting from alcohol. That one has been more challenging than I expected. I am not a big drinker or anything maybe 2 or 3 glasses of wine a month. All of a sudden I am craving Frangelico and Godiva chocolate liqueur. I got a bottle of Frangelico, it is in the shape of a monk. I think he and Mrs. Butterworth should hook up. Or maybe Mrs. Buttorworth is really Mister Frangelico in drag. Anyway - that cocktail sure sounds yummy.

I am also fasting from shopping. I actually really have a problem with shopping. It is my favorite thing to do and has been my whole life. Don't really understand where that desire comes from and why it can't be quenched. So I am offering it up and praying that God replace that desire with something He wants.

So far He wants me to die to myself - to mourn, to find the joy in despair, and to fully trust Him when it is utterly unpractical. Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds. James 1:1

There it is .. an entry.