Divine Motivation

I have come out of agreement with arrogance before. Many times actually. Okay, on a regular, practically daily basis. It seems my God is giving me many opportunities to prove out my belief that He can free me from mself. BLAST, if I don't fail 9 out of 10 times.

Clearly He is serving up the chance for me to tackle the combo meal of arrogance AND self-control. I tend to take the one out of the ten times to pat myself on the back which rapidly turns to an "I've got it licked" attitude then I am smack in the middle of defeat all over again.

I feel him saying to me through a sweet smile "I've got a job for you, lady." I want the job. I really want the job. I want to feel His great pride and humility wash over me. I want a motivation that is pure. The words "glorify Him." Come to mind, and I wonder what that looks like.

It is a tricky business to fully use my gift of leadership and maintain the balance of restraint and humility. A worthy goal - but is it for me? Or for His glory? What was that bit about motivation, again?

Papa, you get to chose for me. Thank you for taking me on. Thank you for your forgiveness over and over again. My prayer to you today, is that you will nest in my motivation and expand your will in my heart. I pray that you free me of my own will, there I said it. I mean it, too. Let's kill my will and replace it with yours. I love you. In your sons name I pray these things.